Still here

I am still here. I am under 200lbs now. I am very happy about this but still having problems with eating. I have been having very bad back and right leg pains. So bad that I have been to the doctor 4 times. I am hoping the pain goes away soon but it makes everything very hard. My knees are hurting now because I have to bend with my knees and actually get on the floor to pick things up. This sucks.
No job yet but I am still looking. DD and I went to California to visit my mom a 2 weeks ago and the visit did not go well. She actually threw a brush at DD, who is only 3 by the way, because DD was crying and didn't want her hair brushed. My mom is very annoying and treats me very bad. She actually thought that DD and I might stay there and not come back home to my husband. How insane is that! I love it here in NJ and there is no way I would move back to CA. My life is so much better here and it was the best decision to move here. We just need our own home and I need a job those are the 2 problems. I am not talking to my mom now because of how bad she treated us. We are not going to visit CA for a long while that is for sure.
DH really missed us when we were gone. But this past weekend was bad and I felt really alone with the way DH was acting. It is hard for me because I don't have any friends so I don't have any one to talk to . Then he acts the way he does and it makes things worst. I don't know what to do sometimes. It is hard not to eat to comfort myself. Really hard.

have a good day