Still here and still pregnant

I am still here just not blogging. I am 4mts pregnant and very tired. I am done with the classes at school but waiting to start the externship part of my schooling. I really want to be done with school completely. I have a lot to say but just don't know how to put it into works. I am having a very hard time right now. Lots of depression and have become very unhappy with my life. I wake up every morning feeling like I am in hell. It is very hard to feel this way. My husband and I are struggling very much with all aspects of our relationship and life. He has actually started smoking again, and lied about to me, this hurt me very very much. He doesn't smoke around me or Katie. Also he says he will stop before the baby is born. We really need to move and not live with my in-laws. I am so unhappy living here. We have started looking at condos to buy and hopefully something will work for us so I can finally have a home. I haven't had a home in 26 years. This is the only dream I have right now, to have my own home and a home for my family. Ok now I am crying so i have to stop now.