Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Less space

So, when I was bigger I weighted 392 at my highest. I took up a lot of space. I am used to people staying away from me. But now that I am down to 200lbs I take up a lot less space and people are alot closer to me. It is weird. People would go out of the way to avoid being near me because of how big I was. Now, people don't do that. People are closer to me in my personal space and I am uncomfortable with it but I am sure over time I will be ok with it. Also there is less of me and I am working on being happy with that. I don't feel like a success but I have lost 192lbs so I should feel like a success. I am having a hard time now with snacking and grazing. It seems like when ever I am home I am snacking and this is very bad. So I have promised myself that I will stop snacking. It is hard though because I am bored most of the time and it is easy just to grab some crackers. This is emotional eating. But I want to lose 30 more pounds and I have to stop snacking.

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